Morphine eyes

5:30 A.M. And I get a call from Stephen.
Bri is on her way to the hospital. She's having the baby.
He says no rush. And I'm not even sure if my job will take "my best friend just went into labor" as a valid excuse.
I conclude.
Fuck 'em. This is the reason I stayed in Tennessee and they can kiss my ass. I'm out of this house in 10 min. At the Hospital in 5. Everything seemed to be going smoothly. They approved the epidural, induced, and we waited.
And waited
And waited
And waited
And Holy effing cow where's the baby??

Well of course the meds slow the process. -_-

I was nervous as all Hell. I paced the hospital when I was restless. Ate crap. And the only thing I had to calm my nerves was one of the most depressing books I've ever read. (Based on a true story to top it)
I took whatever chance I could to be in there with her but even then I felt so helpless. I could only hope that my presence was comforting. And the attempted foot rub.

At one point I was so frustrated I had to leave to drive around. It was mood swing mania in my body. My chest even started hurting.
I was tired
Dirty
Angry
Happy
nervous
uncomfortable
Worried

Then it was proclaimed

Simon Vincent Slate had been born 6:06 p.m.

I went into the room and as soon as I could I hugged her. I hugged her and I didn't want to let her go. I was so proud of her.

And I cried. She smiled and said it was ok for me to cry. And I hugged her again.

When Stephen put him into my arms I looked into his eyes and all my anxiety, fatigue, worries...just disappeared. He started darting them around and grasping at the receiving blanket. I suddenly felt like nothing else mattered but the happiness that was building inside me.

Simon. The day you were born it rained. I love the rain. And when I came home and went out onto my back porch, everything was Beautiful. The air was fresh, crisp, and cool. And I cried again.

Then proceeded into my house and jumped and screamed. :D That's the most positive emotion I've shown in years. And the first time since my Baby brother was born that the reason for my tears was a happy one. One of the best reasons a human being can have.

I'm going to spoil you rotten.